By Jordan Austin, See the Triumph Guest Blogger
Safe and healthy relationships are a basic human right. For survivors of domestic violence, beginning or engaging in intimate relationships may pose unique challenges. The concept of thriving within the shelter of others may very well now have a new meaning, new difficulties, and new hesitations.
After being victimized by a partner who was supposed to be supportive and kind, it’s understandable to have questions or fears about how to navigate future intimate relationships. To quote one participant in See The Triumph’s research, “I still have scars; they will always be a part of what made me who I am today.” If you have experienced the hurtful sting of abuse, you may still be living with the complications today. It’s important, though, to have hope toward the possibility of safe and supportive relationships, either intimately or with friends and family members.
It’s also important to remember that survivors are not destined to repeat cycles of victimization. You may hold fears around fully trusting yourself or others again because of a previous relationship. Time may be necessary to learn about yourself, understand your views of others, and regain power and control over your life again. However, in addition to fostering these aspects self-awareness, there are rights you have as a survivor as you begin the process of moving toward healthier relationships. There is a chance an abuser has told you otherwise, that you do not deserve worth, importance, or efficacy. Combatting these internalized messages will help support you along your healing journey.
In any future partnership, you have a right to make decisions for yourself again. Should you desire a community, a career, an education, a loving partner, you have a right to these things. Embracing intimacy and connection again may cause you to feel uncertain or uncomfortable. You have a right to welcome or decline new experiences and have a partner who is supportive and patient with you. No relationship will be perfect, but you also can question red flags and trust your gut; you are the expert on you. Desiring an intimate connection is a natural need of humans. You have a right to have hope for the future and healing. You have a right to be cared for. You have a right to be safe.
Jordan Austin is a graduate of the University of North Carolina at Greensboro from the Couple and Family Counseling track. She is an advocate for secure, safe, and positive interpersonal relationships. Jordan hopes to embolden survivors of IPV and domestic violence as they reclaim their voice during the healing process.
By An Anonymous Guest Blogger
“Don’t make me pay for what he did…”
Nearly 4 years passed before beginning another committed, intimate relationship since my previous abusive relationship ended. Given my long history with my ex, a large part of my recovery from the abuse involved me getting to know myself in an intimate way without the “burden” of a relationship. As I reflect even more now as I write this piece, I am reminded of how free I felt after leaving the abusive relationship. Even during those difficult healing moments, I was always possessed by such an overwhelming relief that the abuse was finally over.
For a while after my previous relationship ended, I was psychologically broken in my perception of relationships in that I equated an intimate relationship to pain and suffering. I can say that I was not opposed to casually dating and “keeping things light,” but I was opposed to entering another committed relationship again because my trusting nature had been nearly broken and fear of being hurt again paralyzed my heart.
That was until an unexpected someone came along nearly 4 years later and changed all of that…
Approximately 6 months passed between meeting my current partner and making our relationship official. During those months and even now, almost 2 years into our relationship, my partner continues to treat me with a type of love, support, and understanding I have never experienced. For a long time, even at times now to be honest, it scares me because my abuser was also loving, supportive and understanding…in the beginning. The abuse started nearly 2 years into our 8-year relationship.
Despite the overwhelming amount of patience my current partner has displayed, he has said on several occasions, “I’m not him…don’t make me pay for what he did.”
Sometimes I struggle not to compare my current partner to my previous abuser. Sometimes fear does get in the way of our ability to move forward in our relationship because I’m afraid that eventually, things will go south no doubt, because that’s just how relationships work, right?
What I had to learn and am still learning is that healthy relationships do have their challenges as well. Given my history of trauma, we were bound to encounter difficulties as it relates to trust issues, on my part especially. However, with a loving, supporting, and patient partner, a corrective emotional experience can take place and over time, I can say that gradually, I’ve learned to rebuild that trust again.
I can speak for myself and for others that have experienced abusive relationships that the healing process is intentional. I still continue to seek counseling now. Even though things are going great in my relationship, I know that keeping in touch with my feelings as they come up is crucial not only to my own mental health, but to the success of my relationship.
I know firsthand that trusting again is much easier said than done. Even now, it is difficult sometimes to move to the next step in my own relationship when pondering commitments such as marriage and having children. However, experiencing new people and new things have a way of changing one’s mind about the world and the people in it. So, to those reading this post – there is hope out there.
Believe me, I was very cynical for a while, for good reasons I must say! Protecting your heart is important and sometimes necessary to prevent pain and suffering. I would say to be intentional on your healing process because it is critical to your health on an individual and relational level.
Don’t let your heart grow cold and don’t give up on love because if you do, your abuser has won.
By Christine Murray, See the Triumph Co-Founder
This month at See the Triumph, we’re focusing on the theme of safe, healthy relationships following abuse. Most of our focus is on survivors of abuse, but it’s also important to consider how survivors’ romantic partners can best support, understand, and care for them in light of the abuse they experienced. So, today, I’ll share some suggestions for the partners of anyone who has experienced abuse in a past relationship.
For starters, it’s important to remember that every person is unique, and there is really no one-size-fits-all advice. There are no guarantees for how someone will be affected by past abuse, nor are there any rules or prescriptions for the best way to support someone in the process of recovering from past abuse. However, we know from our research with hundreds of survivors of past abusive relationships that there are some common experiences that survivors may have, both during and following their abusive relationships. The following suggestions are based on that information, as well as my clinical experiences as a couple and family counselor. Before considering whether to use any of the suggestions below, I suggest you first talk about them with your partner to see if they make good sense to him or her.
1. Work to promote a context of safety and support in your relationship.
Anyone in a romantic relationship should work toward building a sense of safety and mutual support in their relationships. Healthy relationships are built on a solid foundation of trust, respect, and valuing one another. When someone has experienced any form of abuse in their past, they may have an especially strong need to feel safe and secure in their future relationships. Keep in mind that your partner has seen a very dark side of intimate relationships in the past, and be intentional about showing your partner you are a safe, trustworthy, kind, and gentle person who wants to provide care and support for them.
2. Honor your partner’s decisions as to how much information to share with you about their past abuse.
If your partner has shared with you that they have experienced abuse in a past relationship, know that you’ve been entrusted with some information that’s very personal to your partner. It likely took a lot of courage, strength, and vulnerability for your partner to share that information with you. Know that survivors of abuse are different in the amount of information they want to share with others, even people who are very close to them. You do not necessarily need to know the full story about the abuse they experienced in order to know and understand your partner. There are a lot of reasons why survivors may not want to share all the details of their abuse with a new partner. These include fear of being judged, a desire to avoid the negative emotions that can come up when re-telling their story, and feeling like they’ve moved on from that part of their lives and don’t want to revisit it. Allow your partner to be in control of how much of their story they share with you, and when and how they share it if they do so. Don’t force or rush your partner into sharing too many details, especially early on. Trust your partner’s judgment, and let them tell you their story if and when they feel ready to do so.
3. Do not judge or blame your partner.
Abuse is always, always the full responsibility of the person who perpetrates it. Unfortunately, victims and survivors of abuse are all-too-often blamed for the abuse, and sometimes they even come to blame themselves. As a close, trusted person in your partner’s life, you have an opportunity to remind your partner that they were not responsible for the way their past abusive partner treated them. Consider carefully the words you use when talking about the abuse. Avoid questions like, “What did you do to provoke them?” or “What could you have done differently to end the abuse?” Instead, you can focus on understanding your partner’s experiences within that relationship, such as by focusing on how they felt, who they turned to for support, and what they did to attempt to protect themselves when their partner became abusive. You can even take this one step further and say clearly, “It wasn’t your fault,” and “You didn’t deserve to be treated that way. You deserved love and respect, and you still do.”
4. Be patient, and take things slowly.
Moving slowly in getting to know a new partner is almost always a good idea, as it takes time to really get to know and understand someone. By rushing into a relationship too quickly, you can create more challenges later on, especially if you’ve taken on a significant level of commitment to the other person before you’ve gotten to know where they stand on various important issues and life goals. Someone who’s experienced past abuse may be especially sensitive to rushing into a new relationship, as we heard from some of the survivors who participated in our research. Because their trust has been violated in the past, they may require more time to build trust in a new partner. In addition, it’s very important to honor your partner’s boundaries about the role you have in their life. For example, if you’re dating someone with children, and they say they’re not ready to introduce you to their children yet, don’t push the issue, and let them decide when they feel right about that introduction. By taking the time to really get to know your partner and allowing them to get you know, you’ll help to build a stronger sense of trust, as well as have a more solid foundation for your relationship as it progresses to deeper stages of intimacy.
5. Don’t assume that every reaction your partner has is directly related to their past experiences of abuse.
When you’re just getting to know someone, and sometimes even if you’ve been with someone for a long period of time, it can be difficult to understand why they act the way they do. If you know your partner has experienced abuse in the past, it can be easy to fall into the trap of assuming that some of the ways they act are because of their past abuse. For example, if you perceive them to be holding back emotionally from you, you may assume that this is because they’re afraid of getting too close because of the hurt they’ve experienced before. However, there are a number of other reasons they may be acting this way, such as if they’re just taking their time in getting to know you or they are facing a stressor at work that’s distracting them. Another possibility is that you’re misinterpreting their actions to begin with. In this example, they may not be holding back emotionally from you at all, and it may actually be your own experiences that are leading you to interpret their behaviors in that way. Keep an open mind in learning why your partner acts the way they do, and if you’re feeling uncertain about anything, the best approach is to ask them about it in a calm, supportive way.
6. On the other hand, understand that some reactions may stem from the effects of the trauma of the abuse.
The process of recovering from past abuse can take a very long time. Even when someone has generally healed and recovered, both emotionally and physically, from past abuse, they still may experience challenges that stem from their abuse. For example, someone may have experienced physical injuries that have led to chronic headaches now. Emotionally, survivors may have symptoms of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). If so, there may be certain triggers that lead them to re-experience past abuse. For example, if their partner sexually assaulted them, you may find that there are certain places on their body where you touch them that create anxiety or discomfort for your partner. It may be that these were places on their body that their partner touched them or hurt them during an assault, and when you touch them there, it reminds them of the abuse and leads them to re-experience it. Maintain open communication with your partner to help you understand if there are specific actions you can take or changes you can make to help them with any ongoing consequences of the abuse they’re experiencing.
7. Don’t allow yourself to be abused or mistreated. Expect the same level of respect and kindness that you are giving.
Remember that both you and your partner deserve to be respected and valued in your relationship. The vast majority of people who’ve experienced abuse do not go on to perpetrate abusive behaviors. But, unfortunately, this can happen, so it’s important for you to maintain an expectation that you’ll be treated with respect and safety, just as you are working to provide that respect and safety for your partner. If your partner acts abusively toward you, do not make excuses for those behaviors or let them slide just because you know that your partner has been victimized in a past relationship. Every person is responsible for their own choices and behaviors in an intimate relationship. If your partner acts violently toward you and tries to excuse it because they themselves have been abused in the past, consider how to protect your safety, such as by speaking with a professional counselor or advocate about how to leave the relationship safely.
8. Nurture your own and your partner’s interests and friendships outside of your relationship.
In an abusive relationship, a perpetrator often limits the extent to which their partner can pursue their own life goals and interests. In addition, perpetrators often isolate their victims by keeping them from their friends and family members. In contrast, in safe and healthy relationships, both partners are able to nurture their own individual interests and outside relationships, and this individuality helps bring new energy into the couple’s relationship. Get to know what activities, hobbies, and future dreams make your partner tick, and ask them how you can help them have time and energy for those interests in their lives.
9. Treat your partner as an equal. Value their opinions.
Another tactic that abusers often use is to control their partner’s decisions. It’s likely that, in their past abusive relationship, your partner’s opinions and needs were disregarded and devalued. To add to the safe, supportive context that you’re building in your relationship, be intentional about showing your partner that you value their opinions, as well as they they are an equal partner in making important decisions about your relationship. Any effective relationship requires good communication, effective conflict management skills, and the commitment by both partners to work on and invest in the relationship. In the past, your partner may not have experienced some of these things, so work together to build strong relationship skills and demonstrate mutual respect and equality within your relationship.
10. Learn about the dynamics of abusive relationships. If appropriate, join your partner in their efforts to raise awareness about domestic violence and/or support other survivors.
We’ve heard from many survivors who’ve participated in our research that they grew interested in advocating for domestic violence prevention and awareness as part of their process of recovering from abuse. Of course, not all survivors will have an interest in this type of advocacy work, so don’t push it or expect it. But, if this is an interest of your partner’s, ask if and how they’d like for you to get involved in those efforts. There are many ways to support domestic violence prevention and intervention work, both locally and nationally, so you may be able to find ways that you could make a unique contribution with your skills and interests. Talk with your partner to see if there are ways that you could work together to make a difference in the movement to end intimate partner violence and support survivors.
Again, every survivor of past abuse is different, and it’s important to view your partner as a unique and special individual whose life is not defined solely by their past experiences of abuse. My hope is that the suggestions above will help to open a conversation with your partner about the best ways that you can support them and work to build a safe, healthy relationship together.
By Heather Teater, See the Triumph Contributor
Have you ever been in one of those relationships that would seem perfect if you wrote it out on paper, but it’s just not what you’re looking for? Your partner respects your boundaries, spends time with your friends, and treats you well in many other ways, but you don’t feel like the relationship is going where you want it to go? I’ll tell you something people often don’t think to say: it’s okay to leave that relationship. The fact that a relationship is healthy doesn’t mean that it has to be the relationship you stay in for the rest of your life. This can be a difficult truth for anyone to grasp, but especially those who have been in abusive relationships.
Let me start off by saying that everyone deserves to be in a healthy relationship. Many people have been told by former abusers that they are unlovable, don’t deserve to be treated with respect, cannot “get any better” than their abuser, or a number of other devaluing statements of worth. But these are all lies told by perpetrators in an attempt to keep their partners from seeking another relationship. You, regardless of what you have been told in the past, deserve to be in a healthy, non-violent relationship (if and when you’re ready).
Relationships are supposed to be non-violent – lack of abuse should be a baseline criterion for any relationship. Many have learned the hard way that a relationship that involves any kind of intimate partner violence is not a relationship worth saving. That being said, lack of intimate partner violence should not be the only criterion for a romantic relationship. It’s okay to have certain standards that you feel need to be met in your intimate relationships. What do you want to give and to get in a romantic relationship? There’s nothing wrong with having a list. Keep it in your head, write it down and carry it in your pocket, or post it in big bold letters on your refrigerator – it doesn’t matter! Just know what you want and don’t feel like you have to make compromises because everyone else is telling you that you should want to stay with a certain person.
There are a few people in my life who were hurt in previous relationships and are currently in a relationship that doesn’t bring them harm, but also doesn’t seem to make them happy either. Yet, they stay in that relationship because staying either feels like the “right” thing to do or because it’s the more comfortable thing to do. What if they let go of this relationship and they never find another healthy relationship again? They will be stuck being lonely for the rest of their lives! But that doesn’t have to be the case. If you’re afraid to leave a relationship because you might “end up alone,” I challenge you to reconsider. First of all, though I hate clichés, there truly are “plenty of fish in the sea.” The person you are with is not the one person on earth who is capable of treating you well. There are plenty of jerks out there (please do keep your eyes and ears out for red flags), but there are also plenty of good people. More importantly, though, I challenge you to believe that you can be happy and fulfilled even when you are not in a romantic relationship. Having a few close friends and family members can help keep you from feeling lonely and spending some time without a romantic partner can help you truly get to know yourself.
I guess what I’m saying is that you don’t have to settle in a relationship just because it is better than your previous relationship(s). If your current relationship isn’t really what you’re looking for, it’s okay sit down with your partner and let them know that you want to move on so that both of you can be happy. You deserve to be treated with respect and to want more than that. “Healthy” is an important place to start, but all relationships should be healthy. Feel free to look for something more. You deserve something better than “okay.” You deserve a relationship that leaves you feeling worthwhile, respected, strong, independent, and happy. Don’t settle for anything less.
By Christine Murray, See the Triumph Co-Founder
If you’ve been abused by a past abusive partner, there are many reasons why it makes perfect sense that you’d be afraid of entering into new intimate relationships. With this experience behind you, the risk of being hurt by a romantic partner is a reality, not just some abstract concept or statistic.
You know firsthand how damaging a harmful relationship can be--physically, emotionally, and/or spiritually. Even if that relationship has been over for a long time, you may still be dealing with the complications of it, such as if you’re still experiencing PTSD symptoms, or if you have to deal with your former abusive partner due to shared child custody. You may question your judgment in choosing a romantic partner, and you may fear that you’ll end up in another abusive relationship. All of these thoughts and feelings are very normal and expected responses to the trauma of abuse.
Despite all of the reactions described above, many survivors of abuse still hold out hope of finding a safe, healthy intimate relationship. Desiring an intimate connection with another person is a normal, natural human need. Even Maslow included belongingness and love in his Hierarchy of Human Needs, although of course there are other ways to achieve these needs beyond intimate relationships. Desiring love, affection, and connection with a romantic partner is natural, so survivors can rest assured that those desires are normal, even when past relationships haven’t been positive experiences.
The truth is, deciding to pursue a new intimate relationship after abuse does carry some inherent risks. There is virtually no way to guarantee that a relationship or partner will not ever become abusive, as we know that some abusers are extremely manipulative and won’t show any abuse until long after a relationship has been established. This thought is extremely scary if you’ve experienced any form of abuse in a past relationship.
You may feel that you can’t ever fully trust another person again. We heard this theme from several of the survivors who have participated in our research. For example, one survivor said, “I have avoided getting close and intimacy and sex because they have been such triggers.” Another participants said, “I was afraid to enter another intimate relationship, I did not trust anyone.” Another shared the following experience: “My journey included learning to understand why I felt the need to be the one in control of my subsequent relationships and the one to end them rather than show any signs of neediness. I chose partners who I knew would not be suitable husbands or fathers of children in order to maintain both power and distance, and at the first disagreement or argument, I ended the relationships. It took a long time to disabuse myself of the belief that all men could become abusive if you were 'weak enough' to trust them.”
Making the decision to move forward with pursuing new relationships does mean accepting some inherent risks that can come from getting involved in a deep relationship with another person. Some survivors may be able to feel fully recovered from any of these fears, and one research participant said, “I knew I had overcome my past abuse when I felt like I wanted another intimate relationship and I wasn't afraid anymore.” However, for others, acknowledging the fears that can come along with this is an important step to moving forward. One survivor who participated in our research said, “I don’t think the fear will ever go away completely.” Therefore, moving into a relationship may require moving forward, despite the fear.
Developing self-awareness is important for being able to recognize potentially unhealthy relationship patterns as survivors enter new relationships. As one example, consider the following story shared by one participant in our research: “I was also hypersensitive to abuse-signals and warning signs, which made me prematurely end relationships, even though it was just a normal action, looking back. Any sign of jealousy or anything that reminded me of my abuser, I was out. I found reasons to leave even healthy relationships as soon as they became serious. I think I was just too scared to become stuck, like I had with my abuser. I am with a wonderful guy right now and couldn’t ask for a better partner.” Once you can identify these patterns, it’s easier to figure out how to alter them and move toward healthier relationship choices. Working with a counselor can be a valuable resource for addressing your emotional responses and relationship patterns when entering and exploring new relationships.
Several of the survivors in our research also emphasized the importance of entering into new relationships slowly after a past abusive relationship. This allows the time to get to know your new prospective partner, and it can also help make it easier to end any prospective relationships that show signs of being abusive, unsafe, or otherwise unhealthy. One survivor said that it took her “longer to commit to a new relationship,” and another shared that “I didn’t meet a new partner...until the children were old enough to acknowledge and communicate to me their fears or worries, if they had any.” Another survivor offered the following suggestion to others: “Don't jump into any new relationships, only do what is best for you and your kids at first.”
Taking it slowly also requires finding a patient, supportive partner. Two participants in our research shared meaningful examples of the importance of a partner who offers this type of support:
After an abusive relationship, entering a new intimate relationship takes a leap of faith and a healthy dose of trust in yourself. One participant in our research said about finding love again, “I NEVER thought I could do that again.” However, the stories of many of the participants in our research demonstrate that finding safe, healthy love after abuse is possible, especially when you seek a supportive and patient partner, develop your self-awareness, acknowledge the impact of fear or other emotions that may arise, and surround yourself with a support system that you can rely on through the ups and downs of a relationship.
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